My Feel on 17.11.2007 *JULIA*

Today no any special thing..morning go work then afternoon go for meeting wif my mum.. today morning n afternoon i aso quite happy cos my bf got call(10.30am & 02.11pm) me n ask wat i m doing.. i know tat today he is bz for his work so today never come n find me, he ask me find my fren(lyann) to accompany me go out(shopping & drink tea)..after meeting around 3pm i go back home take bath then go to SJMC visit my cousin sister until evening abt 6.30pm.. i wait for so long time he aso never call me then i call him.. he told me tat he at subang parade center..i ask him y no call me wan,he say cos he quite bz..then he told me tat he will take his dinner wif his ex gf..i ask y u eat wif her , he say she work at here ma n i aso wanna eat dinner wan ma..i feel so down(sad).. anywhere nvm lo wat can i do.. jus act like so "da fang" say ok lo..actually if my bf really miss me or he wan to see me, even he is bz or i from the place so far to his work place, i aso can go there to find him for dinner wan.. i jus hope can see him more.. after the call(6.30pm) he never call me anymore(jus today la).. then i go dinner wif my mum n cousin until 8pm then i go to find yen hv a drink wif a fren..actually i control myself dont call him see wat time he only will call back me.. but i wait until 12am he aso never call me , i cant wait oredi so i call him, he say he drink tea wif his fren at sri petaling call me when he is back.. i wait his call n also wait him back see his got on9 or not, suddenly i saw tat his MSN(offline) personal msg write tat "haiz..i hurt myself.." i cant get wat he mean n tis word aso let me think so mant question...Now 18.11.07 4.45am he aso never call me n no any sms for today(whole day).. i really wanna ask him "who m i in his heart n r u care abt my feeling?" i dont wan so suffer everyday.. sometime treat u good sometime treat u cool.. haiz..he really hurt me..