JOGOYA JAPANESSE BUFFET

I went to Jogoya Japanesse Buffet at Starhill hotel... The place is very nice & many food there... I feel so happy cause hav alot of dessert... I ate my favourite cheese cake & haagen dazs ice-cream... hehe... Really feel happy , 'xin fu' & 'man zu' when i eating the cheese cake & the ice-cream... [ sure will be very fat d... :( ]
When i am enjoying my food, i saw a couple sit bsite me & the guys feed his gf to eat... so sweet nehh... Dont noe when will i found my true love lehh... ;o)

-" liyan'zz ''-
30.11.2007

Wake up...... -'' NEW LIFE "-

* Wake up lahh... Wanna wake for so long d.., but always also just thinking & not doing... '' kong kou shuo bai hua''... hehe
All those things already over jor... past d... Cant keep thinking d... Just keep as a memory......
* Fair for myself & fair to everyone......

* New life starting on 01.12.2007......


-" lyann lee siew yen "-
30.11.2007

Wat you left for me...

* Yesterday nite 29.11.2007 (Thursday) I went to the place that we started (our sweet memories)... Do you still remember where is the place... Because of we went there.., then only our relationship get starting... We when there on Thursday aslo ohh... That was a place that full of our memories... Every time I go there I will also thinking of YOU... But long time dint sit at the table that we sit d...
* I still remember when you just 'li kai' me.., you will call & msg me everyday even though you 'bu fang bian' & busy... You will try ur best to let me hear ur voice & receive ur msg... Then bcome 1 call & 1 msg in a day... Later on bcome no call d... But at least 1 good nite msg to me everynite... Then at last bcome nothing d... Actually I really not 'tan xin'.., I dint hope u to give me anything.., any promisse... Even though just a good nite msg.., i already feel very 'man zu' & very very happy d...
* I noe that may be we will not hav any 'jie guo'... But both of us agree to continue d rite..? You r the 1 who suggest to continue.., Say ' I LOVE YOU '.., ask me to hold u tight... I told you b4 I will just follow wat you say d rite..? So I agree with you... I really love you & hope to maintain our relationship.., even though we cant often c each other... But Y..? Y now you leave me alone without saying & telling me anything... "JIU ZHE YANG JIN QIAO QIAO DE ZOU LE''...
* Do you know that I havent give up..? But wat to do..? I hav no choice... I 'bei bi' to give up... Everyday still waitting for ur call & msg... But everyay also wait for 'nothing'... Each time saw you on9.., I feel very scared... Wanna find you chat.., but not dare... Just waitting for you to prompt me msg... But at last also I am the 1 who prompt you msg 1st... Act I understand... Sumtimes & sumthing non need to say out d... Should be understand & 'laio jie' without asking the reason & the answer... & actually the ANSWER already 'in my heart' d... But just sumtime 'bu si xin'... Want you to tell me by ur own... ;0)
* Hope to be ur forever friend... Anything aslo can share with me... Forever d best friend...
* Remember that I will always be at ur side...
* Wish you always 'xin fu' kuai le' ohhh...

Everything gone d... Wat you left to me is just the "SWEET MEMORY"... THANKS...


-" Yen @ dear / bao bei "-

我又哭了。。

12.30我刚从Flam Cafe回到家。。

现在是2.10am..我刚刚打电话给他，我哭了，我是真的很想念他的声音，我再次叫他"Dear dear"，我已12天没听到他的声音了。。今天我终于再次听到了。。我真的很想念他，很怀念我们在一起的日子，虽然短短一个月，但回忆已刻入我心。。

亲爱得dear dear, 对不起，也许是我喝多了才会打电话打扰你，我是真的很想你，所以我才会做出这样的事。。。

他在电话里告诉我，他在这个星期里都有传简讯给我，想约我吃晚餐，但我真的一封都没收到。。为甚么。。难道是天意? 为甚么别人的我就收到? 唯有他的简讯我收不到。。

他知道我在哭。。

到现在我已哭了超过一个小时半。。我越哭越大声，越哭越厉害。。
我真的不舍得失去你。。但我不能做些什么。。。

宝贝dear dear, 我不在你身边要好好照顾自己，不要让我担心。。。保重。。。我是爱你的。。。。

~*Julia*~ 30.11.07 3.18am

STRANGE FEELING

This few days also hav sum strange feeling... Really feel uncomfortable... Make me feel so sad...

liyann
29.11.2007

感觉。。。

不知不觉已和他分手11天了。。。今天我也像平常一样，做工，放工，回家，只是今天没在家吃饭，和朋友出去吃。。我知道我这位朋友很关心我。。但是。。我还不能接受。。。

回家后，我上网，看连续集，听歌，突然他也上网了，当我看到他的名显示出来时，我的心跳得很快，不知道开心还是心酸。。我也不了解那种心情。。但我们两不知不觉就聊了起来。。。。

他知道我那天去寻欢，他问我"是不是和他(alex)去啊?" 。。突然有点开心，因为觉得他还关心我。。但我告诉他我和我的姐妹们去的。。

他也有问我最近怎样，我说和以前一样。。他还问了一个我意想不到的问题"我们几天没见了 ?"当我听到这句话。。我哭了。。我回答他11天了。。他说时间过得真快。。其实他不知道这11天我过得很辛苦。。

在我们的对话之中，他重复了很多次"对不起"，"是我不好，伤害了你。。"但我还是对他说"没关系，已经过了"。。他看到我MSN的题目"我真的很想念你"和"已不想谈恋爱，不是不要，而是怕再次被伤害！"。。他问我什么意思。。我说"没什么啦"。。他又问我"真的吗"。。。。这次我没回答他。。其实我真的很想告诉他"这些是我的心里话，是我想告诉你的话。。。。"

他还告诉我，他说他这几天都没心情工作，我就问他"为什么?"，他说"因为你"，因为他觉得他很坏，伤害了我。。。我沉默没出声。。过后他说他累了要睡了。。他在离开前对我说"如果你有什么需要帮忙的，你可以打电话给我"。。。然后就挂了。。。

我真的不知道我自己那时的感觉。。到底是开心? 伤心? 安慰?

这几天我都听着一首歌，李玖哲唱的"我会好好过", 因为他唱出我想说的话。。"我会好好过, 等你再爱我, 向左或向右, 都有我站在这里守候。。"

我想对他说我还很想念你。。很想拥抱你。。很想再次投入你的怀抱。。。

我还爱你。。

~*Julia*~ 29.11.07 2am

*~*曾經*~*

曾經不愛自由，跟你一起，寧願受束縛。然後有一天，愛上了自由，寧願冒著失去愛情的危險，也要追尋我的自由。

曾經好想一直躲在你的臂彎，你的懷抱裡，被你保護著。然後有一天， 發現我原來不是這樣的人。

曾經以為，愛情是人生的全部。然後有一天，發現那只是我浪擲了最多光陰的一部分。

曾經以為，即使愛上你，我也可以全身而退。然後有一天，發現我退得滿身傷痕。

曾經以為，愛上了，就不會寂寞。然後有一天，還是會寂寞。

曾經以為你會永遠愛我，於是一直測試你對我的愛，一直挑戰你的底線。然後有一天，發現你果然沒那麼愛我了。

曾經害怕失去你，然後有一天，明白了人生的無常。

曾經想要從你身邊走開，跟你說：「忘了我吧！」。然後有一天發現，雖然一起已經沒有那麼甜，離開還是會捨不得。

*~*by melody*~*

我也不了解什么是。。爱！

以前我一直认为"爱"是很简单的，爱是由两个人建立的，是从双方认识开始，感觉，了解，喜欢和感情而开始的。。慢慢的就产生他们之间的爱情。。

但是现在的爱情也许是由外表，样子，穿着打扮，可能也许有一点点好感和重点"钱"而开始的。。到底爱情是否真的能用钱来衡量吗?

虽然我一直认为愛一个人是付出, 而被愛是幸福的！

在好的方面想"爱一个人是很开心，很享受愛一个人的喜悅，看着自己喜歡的人開心自己也就開心起來了".. "而坏的方面想"愛一个人是很痛苦的,因為你很愛他,他卻不珍惜或不愛你。。"

在好的方面想"被愛是开心和幸福的，就像被人守护着", 而坏的方面想"被愛是很不自在的,如果爱你的人不是你爱的人, 你就会觉得有人对你死纏爛打。。"　

其实最幸福和开心的是两人真心相爱，可以互相分擔喜怒哀樂和互相解憂解愁。。

但现在的我已慢慢不了解，不明白什么是爱。。。
对爱的感觉变得很模糊。。。

因为爱令我感到很深的伤害。。令我流了很多的眼泪。。。
他真的把我伤得很深。。很痛。。。

~*已不想谈恋爱的人，不是不要，而是怕再次被伤害！*~

~*Julia*~ 26.11.2007

-" LOVE "-

Wat is LOVE..? Now days I really don’t noe wat is LOVE…
LOVE should be very simple, ‘dan chun’ , trustable & HAPPY... but I realize now days d ppl not serious in LOVE… They will just play play… especially guys…
Really not dare to trust LOVE… Drop for so many times, until so many scars… Really SCARE d...
Y..? y wanna make it so sad? LOVE shd be HAPPY & 'XIN FU' d...
True LOVE really hard to find… those who found, must ‘zhen xi’ ohh… REMEMBER…
Hope to find sumone that can let me trust him so much… true on me... SERIOUS in LOVE…
I wanna find my "XIN FU"ohh......

* Guys... U all must remember... THINK abt the girl's feeling & the 'hou guo'
- when u say "I LOVE YOU"...
- when u say " I MISS YOU"...
- bfore u make a promise...
- bfore u tell her anything
- .......

* Everyone must remember that LOVE should be true at all the time & "yi xin yi yi"......


-" lyAnn "-
26.11.2007

*~*day dreaming...*~*

As usual, wake up, bruth my teeth and ready to start a new day...
suddenly found my eye rings which long time never wear on it...
when i meet YOU, i am wearing this earing also...( silent for long time )
Now only i know, when you miss a person, no matter what thing you saw, you will make it automatically link to that person...(haihz)
Life is short....so fast already few months over ler....so fast, the only year 2007 will end soon...thanks for being with me my jimui...when i need someone, you all will be there for me...and i really appreciate on few of my frenz, who treat me as their family....i will never ever forget you all....yi?! why sounds like i am gonna to die lidat ar?! (normally ppl will say those things b4 they die i think...CHOY! haha ! )
Anyway...just a little miss him...and a great thank to you all...and keep listening the song, to create a down melody....which long time never enjoy to be alone and silent my mind...
Just shut up and shut down everything...don't think anythg....leave it blur....

*~*melody*~*

FAMILY'S DAY (SUNDAY 25.11.07)......

Today I so 'guai' ohh.., accompany my family for whole day... Summore cook 'tong sui' & 'muk shu' for my family... Now only i realize that i really long time dint cook dessert liao... hehe...
Sorry to my 'ji mui' cause cant accompany you...

-" Lyann "-

*~*I cant make you love me...if you don't*~*

Listening to the song " I cant make you love me" from Bonnie Rait...

I received a call from my friend....A guy...who did so many things for me, but never ask for any rebate...The conversation is like below...

668: Luilui...where are you now?
Melody: Hanging around with doing nothing...Why?
668: I just feel like wants to talk with you....wants to hug you hardly...
Melody: What happen? you sounds like crying? Big boy...don't cry...
668: I just have some problems...which only can settle by myself...I don't know how to tell others because there's no one can I talk to...I feel so suffer and I feel I am not me anymore...I need someone...and that one is you, I never dare to ask you to love me....because I cant make you love me...but i wish you hear your voice when i need someone...there's no one i can talk to like how you did....when i hear your voice, i just can see that i almost can see you...can see you are just right beside me...please...accompany me for some while...please...
Melody: *speechless* (tears rolling in my eyes)
668: I will miss you always, but you will never be there for me...I know, I understand...because of too understand...that's y i was always the one who thinking not to trouble on you...and i know, I can't make you love me, if you don't....

I can totally understand his feel...and I can understand "HIS" feel too...668 treat me good, hardest good...but i really cant love him, i cant give him anything...like how "HE" treat me...no matter how...he cant love me....he cant give me anything...

The feel of 668 wish to hear the person he needed voice....I know I understand his feeling...
I wish to hear his voice right now...even I am not beside him...but when i hear his voice, i owez feel that i can almost see him...

Still listening this song...." I cant make you love me..."

the lyrics are " I cant make you love me...If you don't...you cant make your heart feel something you don't know..."

*~*by melody*~*